Not a great day. 14 smokes, 4 over the limit. So here come the lame excuses. First of all I was up an hour earlier, 6:30 not 7:30. Secondly I stayed up later (1:00am) adding 4 hours to my day. If my goal was 1 an hour then I have an excuse for the extra 4, one per hour. But my goal was to get to 2 hours between smokes and that did not happen. I screwed up. Easy to fall back into old habits. If you check my schedule out I actually did pretty well until we went out. I can't even blame it on drinking, since I didn't drink last night. I just fell back into the habit of smoking while we were out.
6:30am as soon as I got up
7:15am
8:15am before taking Alexia to school
9:25am before atarting a big project at work
11:15 Yea almost waited 2 hours but was busy at work
12:30 had one before I left for work to curb the cravings in the truck
2:oopm Made myself wait almost 2 hours
4:00pm yea another 2 hour break in my day
6:00pm yea another 2 hour break two in a row
8:00pm another 2 hour break and we went out to eat at 6:30 so I also waited after eating on this one (2 stars)
9:45pm not 2 hours but it was a break between sets and I wanted to smoke with MO one of the singers
11:00pm again not 2 hours but another break
1:00am when we got home just before bed I wanted one earlier while we were standing out side talking with friends but I resisted
So 14 total today, not the best but better than 20.
Start over again tomorrow and see where we go from there.
Relapse is a part of any treatment plan of recovery. The challenge is to understand all the whys and ways of relapse, go through it, get back on track, and make the frequency and length of occurrence shorter and shorter until relapse is over. I say you're doing incredibly well so far!
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