I just re-read my posts and realize that as much as I bitch and moan about negative people a lot of my posts deal with negative feelings. I don't want to be that person. I want to be the person who brings light into the room, not darkness. I want to be the person who brings a smile into people's eyes, not a frown. I want to be the person who people walk across the room to talk to, not the one people walk across the room to avoid. I know it is almost impossible to be happy and carefree and "up" all the time...things happen, but I want to be the person who is happier and positive more often than I am negative and angry.
I need to work on being more positive in my life without the help of "blowing off steam" with cigarettes. Cigarettes may be relaxing for me, but they are not a positive relax. They are not healthy for me, they are not healthy for others and I need to find a different release. Don't know what that will be yet, have to do some deep soul searching, and some light internet searching (you never know what you might find on the internet).
I am staying at 10 or 11 smokes a day. Haven't pushed myself to go under that yet. I figure if I stick it out at 10 or 11 for a week or so I can cut a few more out one at a time within the next month.
By the way Sharon, My E-cig should arrive about the 24th (next Monday). I am on my own until then. I will let you know when it gets here, what the directions are and how it goes for me.
I'm a big fan of one change at a time, so your plan to get used to 10-11 a day first, and then cutting out another one at a time makes a lot of sense to me. Hopefully the EC will help make it easier to do.
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