9:00pm 11 smokes today and one more at 10:00pm before bed for a total of twelve. Not as good as yesterday when I only smoked 11, but it is a start. Did not smoke at all in the truck today, that is a plus. Average time between smokes was 1 hour 45 minutes, need to get it up to 2. I can divide the pack I have tomorrow into 2 packs of 10 each and should be able to stay on track with 10 per day.
My smokes today went like this:
7:35am as soon as I got out of bed
8:15am before taking Alexia to school
9:30am break from work
10:45am break from work
11:45am break from work
1:15 pm break from work
3:00 pm before leaving from work so I wouldn't smoke in the truck
4:15 pm waited for a while after I got home from work
6:00pm just before supper
7:25pm waited for a half and hour after eating
9:00pm got bored
10:00pm will smoke just before bed I always do
I am more aware of when I am smoking now, but I have become somewhat of a clock watcher to see if I can have a smoke yet, or how long I have to wait. I need to re think because I noticed today that when my hour was up I found myself saying "I can have a smoke now" even though sometimes I really wasn't ready to have one. Habits are really hard to break. Most of smoking wasn't because I wanted or needed one, it was because it was habit. Get in the truck, have a smoke, eat a meal, have a smoke, get bored, have a smoke. Once I can differintiate between when I want a smoke and when it is just habit I think I will be better able to cut down. That is one reason the time table is helping. Now if I can only stop watching the clock so much I think I will be on my way.
I was a clock watcher for my first couple of TV addiction recovery weeks. What time is it... is it 8pm yet... too early to watch tv? As you know, it passes. But boy, it's hard in the moment! Habits are hard to break. Easier for me if I replace the "bad" habit with a better one. Instead of TV, I'm reading or writing again. Instead of smoking, you're...........
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