Used the E-cig today some. I still smoked 11 today even with the E, but it didn't feel as hard. I wasn't watching the clock as much, or waiting for my next puff. I was thinking today that it is somewhat like a little kid...the more you tell them they can't have something the more they want it, as soon as you tell them they can have it they don't really want it. With the E-cig I know I can have it, at least a puff or two, and so it seems I don't want it as much. Cravings weren't as bad today I don't think but maybe it was my imagination, since I still smoked 11. I just have to keep telling myself that I need to be paitient, this will not change overnight, it will take time. I can and will do this one step at a time, one less smoke at a time, one more day toward my goal. I will try to use the E-cig more tomorrow.
By the way Sharon, the E-cig is heavier that a regular cigarette because it has a battery and a small metal tube (the atomizer) in it. The real one only has paper and tobacco leaves. It is not real heavy, only heavier than a real one.
I like what you said recently, something about how the further along you get the more you notice the changes in your body and how you want it less than before. And even now when you're new on the EC, your thinking and need is still changing. Awesome! I guess the weight of the battery and atomizer is an ok trade off.
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