Not a bad day today. Only 11 by the end of the night anyway.
7:45
8:35
10:05
12:10
1:10
2:45
4:30
6:10
7:30
8:50
and last smoke will be 9:45
I realized today that even cutting back by half has started, just started to get some of the nicotine out of my system. I know this because I get a head rush from a smoke every now and again. I haven't had a head rush from smoking for a long long time, so I know at least some of the narcotics are leaving my body slowly.
I have decided that 2 hours is a pretty high goal at this point, and I can get to 11 or 12 smokes a day with and hour and a half in between. I know this sounds strange to lower my expectations at this point, but if I make the goal more easily attainable, and then actually reach that goal then I can move toward the next goal. It is like climbing a mountain, if you set your sights to high on the first run you will never make it. But if you gradually work your way, step by step, you will eventually make it to the top. So here are my baby steps:
1 1/2 hours between smokes at least
add an extra 5 minutes between smokes
I need to find a song or a mantra to say in my head so that I can think of something besides smoking. If I can stop thinking about it, then it doesn't seem to be so hard to wait longer between.
Thanks to you Sharon for reading this all the time and for your encouraging comments. They do help and I look forward to reading them. Today it really helped, because I know you are reading this and when I thought about having a smoke I thought well I have to tell Sharon in the blog tonight and I don't want to tell her I failed, so I will wait a few more minutes before smoking. You really are helping me, even from 500 miles away! Thanks
I think you are wise to make your goals more attainable in order to avoid self sabotaging behaviors. We all want more feel good successes. I think I'll try that "add five minutes" to my walk. We can always add five minutes. Just think of the possibilities!
ReplyDeleteI'm sure there's a Kelly and Blaze song that can help you. And you can check out this website...
http://jimmybearpearson.com/music2quitby/ .
You know Mickey, you helped me too, with my TV issues. I wanted the accountability, and to have my issue be "witnessed" helped. Always easier to do it with others and not alone.
You go girl!