02/03/2011

10 today, planned on 9 but had a very rough evening. Had to go outside a couple of times just to "get away" if only for 5 minutes. I know, I know..excuses, excuses, but some days are like that, yeah they are. Had a great morning, but got off track after 5:30. march had a migraine and E was on a roll. I am thinking seriously about investing in "the patch" (worked last time). I am going to wait until E goes home before making that decision. I still have time before March 26th. I will just have to see how it goes after the house is clear of negativity and noise. I never realized how much I really enjoy peace and quiet. Alexia has been spending a lot of time in the back bedroom watching tv or playing in her room. The loud talking and constant noise bothers her too I think, probably because she is not the one making it, and she has no control over it. Funny how 5 minutes outside and a hit of nicotine can calm me down so quickly, and get me to relax a bit. Then I can deal for another hour or so, then need another break. But then this blog is supposed to be about smoking not E, but it will be interesting to see how much better I do after she is not in the house anymore.