Haven't blogged for a couple of days now. Late nights! Having to much fun. I gave myself a day off on Friday and didn't worry about how much or when I was smoking and I still didn't smoke quite a whole pack. I did smoke 18 which is a lot, but it wasn't a whole pack (20). I have to tell you my sinuses paid for it the next morning. They were stuffy and sore for about 3 hours.
Yesterday I was more aware but I still smoked 12.
Today going to try to get back to 10.
You asked what I did last time when I hit a plateau. Well last time when I got to 10 for about 2 weeks straight I went to the patch. That helped a lot and I think I will probably do that again. I think I am having a much harder time quitting this time because last time it was in my mind to quit for good and that didn't happen. When we got home from the vacation I started again, and starting again was much easier than quitting. This time I am quitting for the vacation and seeing what happens after. My mind is not wrapped around permenantly quitting yet. I know I should, and I know it would make me feel better, and I know all the reasons I should I just can't seem to get there yet.
Quitting is a process, and you're working it. You haven't given up. That's the sign of success.
ReplyDeleteYou said your post would make me mad, or something like that. You said that after my call with Linda. I don't feel any anger. I feel hopeful, because you're trying to quit now, while she still have time enough to enjoy life after you've stopped. You're not waiting for a COPD diagnosis. You're doing it now. That makes me feel hopeful, not angry.
I suppose though, if we look at t his from the a "stages" perspective, anger is there, awaiting its turn. But for now, in my lineup, it's pretty far back there.
So from your hopeful friend to her courageous friend...way to go!