03/13/2011

I have been searching all week to find the right word for what I am missing about not smoking. I have used the terms habit, and physical motion, and what I do. Mo gave me the right word last night...What I miss about smoking is the ritual. The whole ritual of going outside, lighting the cigarette, taking the first puff, watching the smoke rise from the end of the cigartte and dissapate in the air. It is the ritual of smoking that I miss, and that has been so hard o give up. I guess I need to find a new ritual, not just something else to do with my time, not just filling time but creating some kind of ritual. I need to think some more about this.
As far as last night...I did fine. Didn' even really have much of an urge to go smoke. I did tell Cheryl and JJ that I had been 3 days with out a cigartte. JJ gave me a high 5 and Cheryl said "good job" and that was about all that was said.
I talked to March about not noticing and she said that she really hadn't noticed other than I didn't go out side as much. I guess that is something.