Nope, did not make 8 yesterday! 9, just couldn't resist that last smoke before bed. Today was much worse. Woke up at 6:30, laid in bed until 7:00am. Woke up with an "I don't care" attitude. Took a shower tried to wash it off but was unsuccessful. Not really a pissy attitude, or angry, just not caring. Had 5 smokes before noon. Really hard when I get behind so early in the day. Could not shake the attitude all day long. Sooooo, not even close today!
I will be at 12 by the time I go to bed tonight. Did check on the prices of the nicotine patch this morning (when I stopped to buy smokes) ironic right? I get paid tomorrow so I will buy the patches before the week end. More importantly than the help though is the attitude. Need to get back on track and start caring again. Don't really know what the problem was today, just woke up with the wrong attitude to fight the fight today.
Tomorrow will be better.
Have you done the patch before? Is the EC helping at all? It's sooo blasted hard to change habits, especially habits of attitude. I wish I had magical words of wisdom to help with that, but all I've got is words from Maxine:
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